A Jekyll & Hyde Kind of Day

30 12 2008

I’ll be brutally honest. Today was one of those days when I questioned being a mom.

By 8am, I had had enough screaming for the day.

It ended with K not wanting to eat his cheese quesadilla for dinner. When I say not wanting to eat, I mean head on his tray, screaming with tears pouring down his face, they were pooling on his tray. After 35 minutes, I gave him some pineapple and a berry granola bar. I told my mom that it’s so much easier to stick to my guns and “make” him eat (either at that sitting or later) when Zach is home. When he’s at work (during most meals) I tend to just say “Whatever” and give him something I know he’ll eat to make the screaming stop.

Some sweet spots to the day:

B sleeping in my arms while K napped (I don’t “let” this happen too often, but it was ‘one of those days’)

K came over while B was sitting in my lap, gave him a HUGE, wet kiss on the forehead and a hug (a real hug!) and said, “Lo, B” (I’m thinking ‘Love B’ …he calls Benjamin, B)

Every time K needed a diaper change, he told me and went right to his room and didn’t fight it (huge step, right mamas?)

B & I had a long peek-a-boo session which resulted in him belly laughing for about 30 seconds

And at bed time, K came back to give me 3 more hugs before heading off to bed – I’ll take that any day!

The end result. I wouldn’t give up this job for anything. I can honestly say, tonight when I lay down and think about my day, I’ll remember those kisses and hugs and sweet laughs from my babies…


Merry Christmas!

24 12 2008


Baby time!

20 12 2008

NO, we are NOT pregnant (ask me how I know…and I’ll tell you, lol)

However, Marcy suggested I write about how we knew it was time/how we decided to have children. For fun, I decided to tackle this tonight because there are two really simple easy answers – one for each child.

Let me start by sharing our “birth control.” Before we got married, March to be exact, I started on the pill. I never had any of the side affects that many people experience. In September of ’05, I started getting really bad migraine-like headaches once a month (wink wink, nudge nudge) – so bad that I couldn’t go to work. It was awful. In Feb. of ’06, I had my ‘yearly’ and talked to the OB about it. She decided that it was an estrogen overdose- she checked what I was taking and found out that I was on the lowest amount of estrogen possible. So she put me on a higher dosage (ie: different birth control). this only made things worse. The head aches weren’t “once” a month, they were almost everyday for about 2 weeks (the time frame I took the new birth control). Finally one night, Zach came home and decided for us that I was no longer taking the hormonal birth control (this was a decision made not only from my “side affects” but from a class we were taking, “Ethics in Marriage and Family”). We decided that Natural Family Planning (NFP) was the way to go (I can discuss this more in the future if anyone is truly interested). We used NFP from March – May to prevent a pregnancy….

Keaton’s story (he is now 20 months) – Zach and I were married June 4, 2005. We agreed from the start we’d wait at least 2 years before trying to have children. Shortly after (and I mean like MAYBE 2 months) we got married, we made the decision to move to NC to start Seminary. In this planning, we agreed we would wait until Seminary was finished, we each had our Masters (mine in Biblical Counseling, his M.Div.) and he was in a full time ministry position. “No way” could we do Seminary AND have children. Imagine our surprise upon moving into our apartment and finding neighbors with children…and I don’t mean 1 or 2…I mean 4, 5, 6, one neighbor 8 children! Granted these people had been in Seminary for EVER, but, they had beautiful families! Par for the course, I got baby fever. BAD. I kept my wanting at bay. On June 3, 2006, my room mate from college got married. We attended her wedding and came back home. We decided, on a whim that we would go out to eat that night to celebrate our 1 year anniversary. We got home from the wedding and had some down time. We were watching TV and talking. Zach got very serious and said, “So I’ve been thinking…” (NOT a good thing…usually…) “I think we should try to have a baby…” Imagine my surprise! I just looked at him and said, “Reallly?!” We talked about it for a few minutes, I of course was all for it. We decided to make a go of it and see what would happen. We were truly blessed with no fertility problems and 6 weeks later, I was holding a “stick” with two lines on it! In April of ’07, on Easter Sunday morning, we welcomed Zachary “Keaton” into the world after 36 hours of labor and an emergency c-section. I honestly couldn’t tell you what we talked about that June afternoon. Zach said, “baby” I said “OK!”

Benjamin’s story (he is currently 4 months old) – I was still nursing Keaton at the time. We were again using NFP (for the record, NFP is super hard whlie breastfeeding, I’d just like to say!) I had one cycle in October and at the end of November, after spending the night in the bathroom sick to my stomach after spaghetti, I tested. I was indeed pregnant. That’ss how we decided on having Benjamin! 🙂

Were we scared? I think I was more scared than Zach. He was pretty excited. I was worried what I was going to do with 2 under 2! I was also very concerned because I had a c-section with Keaton and desired a VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Cesarean) for my next birth. The “desired” wait time is 18 months between births.

What are we using for birth control this time? You guessed it…we’re rolling the dice again 😉

Sorry, Marcy. I wasn’t a lot of help 🙂 I guess I can say this, in response to your comment. We knew that if we waited for the “right” time, that time would never come. There would always be something that made it the wrong time.

We’ve had to sacrifice some things. I’m no longer in school working towards my Masters. I miss it so much, but I can’t imagine doing anything else right now, other than staying home with my sweet boys. I’m also not “working” (not getting paid – you bet your sweet bippy I’m WORKING, lol) so we don’t have all the luxeries we’d LIKE to have. Do we have everything we NEED? Yes. We are not WANTING for anything. Are there things we WANT (ie: desire) that we can’t have/can’t do? Absolutely, but those sacrifices have been totally worth it.

Was that a bit better answer? 🙂

Random entry

3 11 2008

As of late, I’ve begun to post a lot of “random” things on our family blog that I feel don’t belong there and really take away from the purpose of that blog – to share our family with others. The point of this blog will be to ramble – about whatever I feel like (giveaways, freebies, rants about other drivers, random thoughts I have, etc…)

For those “new” here (read: those who don’t know my family) – I’ve been married to my amazing husband, Zach, for roughly 3.5 years (at the time of writing this!) We have 2 sweet boys – K (almost 19 mos) and B (2.5) months. Yes. We have our hands full. Yes we know what “causes” that. And yes, I love them being so close. K loves on his little brother all day (which is why they’re both sick…again, at the time of writing this!)

I have a couple other blogs, in addition to our family blog. I also have my recipe blog, a giveaway blog, and “Help with sides” – I started this because, although I love cooking/baking, I NEVER know what to make WITH meals. I started it in hopes that people would give me ideas…but none, so far. Alas.

Now that I’ve made the “official” first entry, I can get started on my ramblings 🙂

Sit back, snuggle up under a warm blanket and enjoy the ride of motherhood!